I’m a little more than halfway done with my degree at Eastern Arizona College. With that in mind, I have absolutely no idea what I want to do or where I want to go once I get it. I’m going to apply for the USC Film School to finish off my Bachelor’s and possible Master’s Degree next year, but with an acceptance rate of only 16% and an out of state tuition of $50,000+ a semester, I have no idea how that is going to turn out. I obviously want to pursue an occupation in Hollywood, or at least an organization associated with such, but I’m going to have to take a serious leap of faith. For this reason alone, I’m depending more on my Heavenly Father than ever before.
I’m not going to flat out say that I’ve always been dependent on God, especially this last year of college, but after a few key incidences that had me on my knees at least three times a day, I’ve come to note how much he really does bless me. I’ve made a few promises with him, one of which was to always be his servant. About a year ago I told everyone that I was going to serve a mission– that didn’t happen. At first I thought that I’d go on one before getting my Associate’s, but now that I’m almost done with it, I decided that I’d wait until 2018. My family keeps asking when I’ll go, or if I will, to which I say (perhaps a bit annoyed) “YES.” I am going, and I think Heavenly Father has provided that opportunity next summer.
Unfortunately, I’m going to have to make some big sacrifices before leaving. First of all, I’d miss out on opportunities of Warner Bros/Hollywood internships. The ones I wished to be a part of are taking place next summer, in which the participants should have graduated with an Associate’s that same month. Next, before deciding on my mission, I had planned on entering the Hollywood Pitch Festival: a gathering where you go to sell your film/TV scripts to major cooperations such as ABC, Warner Bros, Universal Studios, etc. It would have cost $500 to attend and pitch my stories, but if my script(s) was admired by any one company, I could have sold the rights to it for over $100k. That wouldn’t have only helped with a university tuition, but secure a place in Hollywood for my ideas. However, I know Heavenly Father wants me to go on a mission, so I’m putting all my trust in Him.
When I was younger, maybe twelve or thirteen, I asked my mom a question. At the time, I was in a situation where every “oldest” sibling I knew in different families had drifted away from the church. I, also being the oldest child in my family, was worried that I too would eventually fall from being LDS.
“Do you think I’ll go to church when I’m older?”
I explained to my mom my concern, and she reassured me. “It’s the choices you make now that determine how you will be in five, ten, or twenty years.”
As a twelve year old, I didn’t tell myself I’d go on a mission– in fact, I was only concerned about going to college. However, I did make the decision then that I’d always trust in Heavenly Father, and that He’d be the first person I wanted to impress. I kept Him in the back of my mind everyday, and my testimony only grew. I’m not entirely sure why a mission wasn’t first priority over school, but I went to EAC right after deciding that I would eventually serve as a missionary, though I had no idea when.
I’m excited to see how I am to help others receive the gospel. I know I haven’t been the best example as of lately, specifically trying to get myself up off my as$ to go to church or refraining from using language that I’m sure would upset my parents, but last night I made the commitment to start reading my scriptures again. I even went out and bought a small journal (but to be honest I’m not sure how long I’ll keep up with journaling). I’m grateful for my parents, friends, roommates, and family, and especially thankful for the testimonies of my grandparents. They are the epitome of selfless serving and putting Christ first.
Well, that’s about all for now. I’ll keep my blog updated with any other news!